Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Smoke Alarm. Unpacking. Other Stuff.

Well, I can now say for certain that our smoke alarms work in our temporary house.  I almost had a damned heart attack when it woke me out of a deep sleep around 8 AM.  No doubt in my mind, that fucker could've woken up the dead.  So, mad scramble to find the step stool, unplug the thing, and pull out the battery - and during this time, the dog is going crazy.  Glad to know that she's on board if we have to evacuate a burning house!!  Hahahahaha!!

The days have been rolling by.  I keep losing track of the day and date, but that's okay.  I still have a lot to do to finish up this house, but I have enough unpacked and stacked in order to make (at least) the main living areas comfortable.  My office looks like a bomb went off in there and I'm working on insurance claims for broken items - I want to get that done before I leave to deal with tenants in the Ark-La-Tex during the first two weeks of May.  It's not going to be a pleasure trip and it's definitely not going to be any fun.  I'm dreading it, really. 

For the first time since around the beginning of February, my mind is pretty quiet and I'm generally happy.  I've been going to the beach and taking long walks.  My car is beginning to look like a beach bum owns it... there's sand and a folding chair and flip-flops in it.  When I walk on the wet sand, listening to the waves, and watching the gulls, I figure this is as close to any type of heaven that my atheist ass will ever see.  And then I realize that I'm really, truly okay.  Of course, I still have issues that (sooner or later) I will *have* to resolve - one way or another and I can't stay insular forever, but while I'm there I can lose myself for a while. 

It's weird... I'm no longer angry about some things, but I find myself to be indifferent or simply not caring right now.  I think that being angry and stressed for the better part of almost three months has burned a lot of things into ashes - the question is, do I want to rebuild??  Or should some things simply come to an end??